*****53***Stars*****

Laying in the dark,

A small smile on my face,

I stare up at the glimmering stars

Knowing that somewhere else, you too are staring up at the some ones.

Face turned to the window,

I count the stars once more.

Fifty-three, the same number of days since I last saw your gorgeous smile.

Fifty-three, the same number of tear-filled nights since the sky had last unvielled its hidden comfort.

Like the past fifty- three nights before this,

I feel the deep pain of tears behind my eyes, down through my throat,

But tonight it different

Because tonight I will not let tears blur my vision of the stars.

Fifty-three stars, fifty-three chances for me to wish you back to me.

Fifty-three stars, fifty-three chances for me to wish that I could have seen you just one last time before I let you go.

Fifty-three stars, fifty-three chances for me to wish that I had known then what I know now.

Fifty-three stars upon which I can wish, fifty-three stars that would let me down.

It wouldn't matter if there were a billion stars lighting up the sky;

You'd still be gone,

I still wouldn't have known fifty-four days ago how I'd feel tonight,

How I've felt for the past fifty-three days. and for all the days to follow

To wish upon the stars would leave me hurting,

So instead, I just look at each one thinking of your twinkling eyes.

Fifty-three stars, the same number of times I whisper "I miss you," each day hoping that somehow you'll hear.

Fifty-three stars, the same number of lifetimes it would take me to give up on you.

Maybe not tomorrow, and probably not next week,

But someday I will have more hope.

Someday I might get my second chance;

Someday, there might be 54 stars...